Day 58, Change 3, Embrace the Fabulous...

Can I keep it real with ya?

I'm pretty freaking fabulous.

Call me cocky, arrogant, whatever but the truth is the motherfucking truth!
All this beating around the bush and shit just ain't going to get us where we need to be. We need to be better than that.

I stay fierce, fabulous, and fine. And there is no reason to try to hide it. Or to not acknowledge it.

I should be ashamed of the talent, the gawjusness, the fierceness. For what reason?

Flaws and all, I still make a pretty fan-fucking-tastic package and I will not waste anymore time trying to downgrade the diva that I am. After all I am the HDIC.

But all that means, I've got to stop the bullshit and live up to my potential.

Therein lies the rub.

If I act like I'm not gorgeous, its OK to be sloppy as my daily uniform.
If downplay my sense of style and impeccable taste, Its OK to not do my hair and wear head wraps and scarfs because I am too lazy to take care of my physical appearance and put in a little work. Its OK to have gained more weight and too have outgrown all of your clothes. Its OK to have not finished your college degree because who are you to think that you are worthy of a life advancement like that. Its OK to nag the fuck out out of your husband cause who do you think you are to have someone who loves you. And its alright to never live up to your potential cause hey you ain't worth none of the blessing that you have been given.

Nonsense.

Total Bologna.

So as Solstice would say, I fiiiinnnnish .

I'm not going to dishonor all the gifts that I have been given by not using them.
That is just plain silly.
Disrespectful really.

When I was born all the good things in this world conspired to give me health, a poetic mind & heart, the ability to sing, an eye for style, intelligence, a good sense of humor, resilience, and the favor of a loving family. Its is unconscionable for me to sit in the house and pout & do nothing with my skill set.

I should be thankful that there are so many different directions my life has pulled me in. because of all the places life has taken me I have done (and can still do) a little bit of everything.
I should embrace that and create a life filled with all the things that I am good at. I shouldn't feel like I have to be perfect at one thing and let the others fall by the wayside. I can be a graphic designer/singer/poet/teacher/card artist/activist/mother/songwriter/sexy beast/wife/& star.

Jack of all trades, master of none.

I'm not perfect at anything but I'm good at everything. That statement has always resonated with me. I don't want to be perfect. I just want to be good. I am.
I honor the fabulousness that is, me. I will claim it. I will own it. Everyday, I will honor the blessings I have been given and strive to achieve the full Splendor that is Senam. No moredoing just barely enough. Its time to do it all, and to do it well....

Stay fierce, fabulous, and fan-fucking-tastic,

Senam
Head Diva in Charge
My Design Diva,